'' Without reining''

'' So I'd start writing without reining myself in''

This is a really interesting sentence for me. It remineded me on my writing attempts.
Every half year in our highscool we had a school homework in which we wrote essays. The teacher would give us the title, and we would start writing. I always thought that I won't have enough time and that I have to finish very fast.
So, I would start writing as a maniac, I would start feeling pain in my hands. I wrote that fast. I really would not rein myself in.
In this sentence I saw myself and I compared myself with Anne. She said that she only felt her fingers moving. Just like me. I would see my fingers running across the paper and sentence were being created. And it was a great feeling. I was creating something and I was proud.
I would realize that I wasn't able to stop. Writing for me, in that moments, represented a way to a whole new world, maybe world of my childhood, maybe my travellings or even my thoughts, maybe my future. But I am now sure that with those schoolworks I would start thinking and I would not be in that classrom, but somewhere else. Only the bell at the end of the class would take me back to reality.
Anne said that writing like this for her was terrible. Maybe because she was writing about food. For me, the case was not like this. I liked the result of writing like this. My brain cells were working fast, my imagination was working fast, and all my thoughts were on the paper.
I never liked writing drafts, even though there were allowed to be written. But I just, didn't like to write them. I know that they were very useful, but at that time, with 16, 17 years I believed that original ideas are the best and that writing from heart is the best writing that exists. Once more, at that time, I really believed in writing without reining myself in.
I have thought after highschool why did I like to write like that and how would I call it. Maybe I liked to write like that because I didn't have a lot of time or I just had believed that it was the correct way to write. So, I had a theory why I liked writing like this. But, I could not give a name to that. And then I read this essay. I realized a great thing.
I knew with what sentence I can describe my writing. ''Without reining'' are two great words that described something I was looking long for.
Because of that, I really, from the bottm of my heart, want to thank Anne.
Anne, thank you!!!